Fuck guys. I was meant to apply for universities through Clearing as soon as it started. I thought that was when kids got their exam results back in August but nope, I found out yesterday that it started on the 5th July. And you know what the worst part is?
I still haven’t done a thing about it.
Today, I spent all day lying in bed browsing reddit and watching YouTube videos. Something is seriously wrong with me and I don’t know how to fix it. I am dreading the whole UCAS process to apply for universities. There’s so much I need to do.
I have to:
- Create an account/login with my existing one (I don’t even fucking know)
- Create a new personal reference or whatever you call it
- Actually find out if any universities I like have a vacant space
- Find out where to live and whatnot
- Possibly have to sort out student finance
It’s just an immense amount of work, I don’t know if I can get through it. Sometimes I really wish I have a mentor of some sort, someone who could guide me through life and give me the motivation I need. I am just so fucking.. fucked.
Recently, I’ve just had no energy. I decided to find out what I could do to make myself feel better and I came across 3 important points which I turned into a ‘motivational wallpaper’. Here it is.
I don’t know guys, I don’t know what the hell is wrong with me. I think I need to reset my brain again with some acid. Tomorrow, I’ll try to complete UCAS as much as possible and then just drop some acid. Get rid of this rut I’m stuck in.